Emoments :))

Was scanning through my inbox, when I found the messages/quotes I used to create on my own. YES, ako nga gumawa nyang mga yan. Made them during my emoments =))))

- People do commit mistakes. In a way or another, you really have to make choices even if it means losing something else, no matter how difficult it is. It's not at all times that you can turn back time when you realize that you've made the wrong choice. All you can do is to prevent the same mistake from happening again.. And maybe, that's why God made time irreversible; so that we get to think hard about the choices we would want to take, and not just settle with "TRY and WHATEVER HAPPENS.".

- Love is like a drug. You'll never know its effects until it had sunken into you. It was unexpected, but you liked the feeling of being under the influence of it. And when it's too much, and is driving you out of yourself, no matter how hard you try to stop..YOU CAN'T.

- Never in my life have I felt how much I lost myself, until I learned how to love.. I loved so much that sometimes, I forgot to remember myself, cared so much that I didn't notice that I was the one who needed that. I have given a lot that nothing was left for me. And of course, I have endured so much pain even if I wasn't the one who deserved it.

- Giving almost everything you have and you are probably creates a great aftermath once the person you have given it to, walks out of your life. It leaves you with almost nothing of what you used to have, and less of what you were. And the great impact you would have to surpass is to put yourself back together again.. And it includes remembering even the smallest gestures of affection. Because yes, having to lose what was once your everything, also makes you forget how it was like to be simply sweet.

- You can never tell how much a person loved you just by how short the time was before she has moved on. It's with how much pain she was enduring just to be okay as soon as possible.

- This feeling, it's weird. Sad for some reason I don't know, bothered because of something I don't even have any idea about. It's very complicated, knowing that I don't even have a clue on what kind of comfort this uneasiness needs. It's like having to be given a puzzle pad, without even having the pieces to get it done.

- They only said it's wonderful, but they never mentioned that it was easy.. Having to find love alsos means having to say hello to pain, and welcome to tears. They always sayt it feels like heaven to be in love, but they never said that you wouldn't have to pass hell first before getting to the heaven you heard of, either.

- UYYYY? Ang emoy ko pala before. Haha :)) Serrehhhh. May sense naman, right? :>

Yes, He Loves Me =))

Tricia: Dad, love mo ba 'ko?

Dad: Oo, may choice ba ako?

Tricia: HAA?? Ganon??

Dad: Haha. Joke lang. Syempre love kita, anak kita eh.

---

Betty La Fea's Father to Betty: Wag ka macocornihan sa'kin ah. Pero kasi, wala na akong hihilingin pa, nung naging anak kita.

Dad: Gaya-gaya. Dialogue ko yun eh.

Tricia: Ha? Dialogue mo?

Dad: Oo.

Tricia: Kanino??

Dad: SA'YO. Wala na akong hihilingin pa, simula nung naging anak kita.

---

Tricia: Pa, love mo ba 'ko?

Papa: Minsan.

Tricia: Anong minsan??!

Papa: Eh minsan kailangan kita wala ka eh.

Tricia: Eh hindi mo naman ako hinahanap eh!

HAHAHA :>

Exasperation

I'm puzzled. I'm bugged, bothered.

For some reason I am not certain of, I feel so uneasy. The disturbance to my peace of mind gives me the effect of merely losing myself, rather, getting myself thrown in complete space. That for which I am clueless about, what seems to be the reason for this discomposure. I really dislike - despise - this kind of feeling. The feeling that can be described by something that cannot be described. This is the kind of indescribable feeling that does not even let you think of the possible words to fit the exact emotion. It's something I really do not like feeling, leaving me with a lot of questions that I don't even know how to answer, or how I would start finding the right descriptions to get it all right. It's like having a puzzle pad shaped like a cloud, but having puzzle pieces in hand that are actually intended to be shaped like a rose. See, no matter how I think of any reason how to resolve this feeling, I do not know what kind of comfort this uneasiness needs. It's as complicated as having the answers but not having the questions in hand. It's like having to do trial and error just to figure out what seems to be wrong, and what makes you feel that way. The last time I had this kind of sentiment was also the day I found myself watching in the movies alone, treating myself with some snacks I love, and jogging while listening to the songs I find very relaxing - alone. See, the outcome was very questionable. I was trying to do several activities, hoping that one of them can make me feel all better. But that's the one thing I have no idea about, the kind resolution I could give myself to make myself feel okay.

Is what I'm feeling just the effect of missing someone? Is it the aftermath of longing for something? Is it the outcome of being bored? Or just plainly the result of something I regret?

I DON'T KNOW.

Because I am Determined to Do So

I gained weight. I'm growing eyebags. I'm bored.

For the past few weeks and months - yes, including those days that we still have classes - I didn't deprive myself from eating regularly; rice and full meals everyday, plus ate whenever I wanted to. For once, I didn't care about the money I was spending as long as it was on food. During class days, I ate one heavy meal every Recess time, and when I felt like it, also ate in fast food chains after classes. So no wonder why I gained weight, at least.

One more thing; during our last hell week, rather, hell month in SSAM, I have experienced sleeping late at night just to finish a certain requirement, or to review for a quiz, especially if it was in Math. And it causes me to have eyebags :|

It's only been two days having no classes anymore, and man, I sleep LATE, I eat MORE. Having to stay here at home means having a lot more time to be bored. And yes, no excuses from not having to indulge in food, especially if I have my guardian here who constantly reminds me to eat my breakfast, my lunch, my snacks and my dinner.

Having to be bummed the whole day also entitles me to just spend time on the internet, browsing, updating, and the likes. And for whatever reason, I could stay up until 1 in the morning doing random stuff.

This summer, I want to lose weight, and lose the eyebags. Well, having more time to be bored, also means having more time to take care of myself. LOL. And yes, I am determined to get rid of the fats and the 'bags.

So I'll really try hard to have a HEALTHY LIFE. Exercising regularly and choosing the right food to eat.

OO. Itaga mo sa bato, KAYA KO!

Scholastican :)

Scholastican Survey
*Grabbed from Mona

1) Anong reason mo kay Ms. Gabor pag nalelate ka?
♥ Hindi ako nalelate :D

2) Chinecheck ba kung knee-length skirt mo?
♥ Hindi naman.

3) Anong ID color mo?
♥ RED :)

4) Kumakanta ka ba ng St. Scholastica’s Hymn?
♥ Yung simula lang :P

5) Anong mga violations ang nagkaron ka?
♥ Daan sa off-limits areas :))

6) Nahuli ka na bang natutulog habang First Friday Mass?
♥ Hindi :))

7) Nakasuot ka ba ng Gala uniform?
♥ Oo naman! :|

8) Sinong partner mo nung Grad Ball?
♥ My cousin :)

9) Nakausap mo na ba si Ms. Dayag?
♥ O'naman :)

10) Nakabasag ka na ba ng instruments sa Chem/Physics lab?
♥ HINDI :)

11) Sinong kasama niyo sa interaction?
♥ SFA yata, pati SJG. Uh, Claret.

12) May memorable experience ka ba nung Graduation?
♥ Wala pa, bukas pa :)

13) San ka kumakain tuwing break?
♥ Eating are near the Xerox-an :))

14) Anong pangalan ng mga naging Kada mo?
♥ MG :>

15) Anong mga naging color mo nung Sports Fest?
♥ Red. Blue. Red. Green :)

16) Anong mga naging section mo nung HS?
♥ Clare. Elizabeth. Hildegarde. FRANCES :>

17) Nakapunta ka ba ng S’mall?
♥ Malamang :))

18) Nahuli ka na bang nakaupo sa mga lockers?
♥ Oo yata :P

19) Ano pinakamahirap na subject mo?
♥ Mula first year? Chem, AA :))

20) Naging teacher mo ba si Sir Pascual?
♥ YESS :>

21) Ilang teachers na ang napaiyak ka?
♥ Si Sir Pascual lang :))

22) Na - aksidente ka na ba nung HS ka?
♥ Hindi.

23) Ano ang laging kinakain mong pagkain sa canteen?
♥ Chicken Fillet? :P :))

24) In general, love mo ba high school life mo?
♥ SOBRA :)

25) Sumali ka ba sa theater play?
♥ No. Skits oo :))

26) Dancer ka ba nung high school?
♥ Ayos lang, nung second year :))

27) Naging class officer ka ba nung HS?
♥ NO :|

28) Favorite subject mo nung HS?
♥ PE? :P English :)

29) Saang gate ka pumapasok?
♥ Gate 3.

30) Anong mga clubs mo?
♥ RCYO,Dance Club, Pax, SWIMMING :) Iba-iba eh, sorry :))

31) Pinaka - namimiss mo nung HS ka?
♥ LAHAT :|

32) Nagkikita pa ba kayo ng mga classmates mo nung high school?
♥ OO magkikita pa kami! :| :)

33) May naging boyfriend ka ba na taga-Marist?
♥ Wala :D

34) Anong madalas mong binabato sa classmates mo?
♥ Wala naman, papel?

35) Anong mga naging class numbers mo?
♥ 1st - Kalimutan ko na :)) 2nd - 16 3rd - Kalimutan na rin :)) 4th - 24 :D

36) Anong favorite number mo dati?
♥ 27 :)

37) Ilan ang naka-away mo na lower batch?
♥ Wala yata? :)

38) Sinong mga naging crush mo?
♥ Unknown eh :))

39) Kasali ka ba sa banda nung HS?
♥ NOPE.

40) Kung totoong Scholastican ka, sino ang kambal ni St.Scholastica?
♥ St. Benedict. Since Prep yata tinuturo na yan :))

Eighteenth Month :)

Happy EIGHTEENTH month, MG :>

My beloved girls :) We've been through so much, good and bad, but at least we still come out tight :) Thank you for EVERYTHING. I owe you SO MUCH, like the happiness you bring me :> I wanted, am wanting, and would still want you to stay with me forever :D Like how Trish said it, "ONE YEAR DOWN, FOREVER TO GO!", and now we're already through with one year and six months :)

EIGHTEEN months passed, and still counting.. :)

ILOVEYOU :*

Friday the 13th Trivia

Just got this from the internet :))

1. Fear of Friday the 13th - one of the most popular myths in science - is called paraskavedekatriaphobia as well as friggatriskaidekaphobia. Triskaidekaphobia is fear of the number 13.

2. Many hospitals have no room 13, while some tall buildings skip the 13th floor and some airline terminals omit Gate 13.

3. President Franklin D. Roosevelt would not travel on the 13th day of any month and would never host 13 guests at a meal. Napoleon and President Herbert Hoover were also triskaidekaphobic, with an abnormal fear of the number 13.

4. Mark Twain once was the 13th guest at a dinner party. A friend warned him not to go. "It was bad luck," Twain later told the friend. "They only had food for 12." Superstitious diners in Paris can hire a quatorzieme, or professional 14th guest.

5. The number 13 suffers from its position after 12, according to numerologists who consider the latter to be a complete number - 12 months in a year, 12 signs of the zodiac, 12 gods of Olympus, 12 labors of Hercules, 12 tribes of Israel, 12 apostles of Jesus, 12 days of Christmas and 12 eggs in a dozen.

- Ooh. Makes sense :P :))

Haha :>

.. Because today,

I AM HAPPY :)))))))

K. Bye :))

Regret :|

O, bigla akong nagsisi, kasi nakita ko yung pictures ko nung hindi pa ako nagpapahaircut :| Yung medyo straight pa and oo, mahaba; eh ngayon kasi diba, sobrang layered na :| Namiss ko bigla. Nakakapangsisi! :|

Dead on One's Feet :|

The title explains it all.

This day was SUPER TIRING. There is something with this day that made me very tired, and I do not know what it was. Maybe it is because I had a headache the WHOLE DAY. SOBRANG sakit talaga. Yung feeling na nagbe-beat yung ulo ko? Yung parang may pumupukpok and all? GANUN EH :| Diane even said na bakit parang natataranta daw kami, ano nga bang meron sa araw na 'to; eh ni hindi naman natuloy yung quiz sa AA and Physics. Kung bakit parang pagod na pagod kami, tense na tense. SOBRANG dami lang sigurong ginagawa. See, HELL WEEK is once again, and for the last time, here.. Again tortured by the overload of deadlines we have to meet, and all the so-damn-much requirements to submit. SOBRANG HASSLE, nakakapagod, swear :| Last week pa paguran eh.

First two hours of the day was Physics, then AA came after Recess (which was after Physics). CLE was after AA, then Lunch Break. And for the first time, we had to bake for only 1 hour, so sobrang madalian. Then Language, Economics came next, then we had to go back in the THE room for our by-products from our baking period earlier. O tapos ang sakit talaga ng ulo ko XC

February 11 - Reading Log Submission. Language Quiz. Longtest in Physics. Longtest in CLE. 'Sulating Pormal' in Filipino.

February 12 - Filipino Longtest. 'Muling Sulatin' in Filipino.

February 13 - Reading Longtest.

February 16 - Econocmis News File. Baking. AA Homework. CLE Homework. Submission of Literary Analysis.

February 17 - Art Longtest.

February 18 - Filipino Reporting. Computer Project (HTML). Filipino Homework.

February 19 - Reporting in Reading. Health Homework.

February 20 - Economics Project; Thesis Paper!

February 23 - Economics Longtest (Pending). Reflection Paper.

February 24 - AA Longtest!

February 25 - Deadline of CLE project.

February 26 - Health Longtest.

March 2 - Physics Project.

March 3 - CLE Longtest.

As of today, February 16, yan pa lang :| Kaya yan. AJA! :))

Quotes I Keep; but Have to be Deleted - Part III

Again, I do not want these quotes to be trashed. All of it makes sense, so I want to post 'em first before deleting; atleast I get to keep them :)

Link to Part I - http://gulmatricia.multiply.com/journal/item/10/Quotes_I_Keep_but_Have_to_be_Deleted

Link to Part II -http://gulmatricia.multiply.com/journal/item/39/Quotes_I_Keep_but_Have_to_be_Deleted_-_Part_II

→ You'll never know how much you needed your friends until you look back along the rope and realized how many knots they tied to keep you from falling. - Kay

→ If you think something is true about someone just because everyone else believes it.. you're not thinking. - Katz

→ Why do girls eat chocolate right after breaking up? Because the sweetness of the chocolate makes them forget the bitterness of breaking up. And why do boys drink beer right after breaking up? Because the bitterness of the beer makes them forget the sweetness of the girl. - Katz

→ Don't try to understand everything; because sometimes, it's not meant to be understood, but rather to be accepted. - Katz

→ A person wouldn't spend time doing little things for someone, if that someone means nothing. - Katz

→ Love is somehow making choices.. It's either choosing pain for other's happiness, or choosing your happiness for other's pain. - Katz

→ Never do anything you can't stand for. Remember; once it's been there, there's no turning back. Life has no rewind, learn to play it right. - Katz

→ When two people are really in love with each other, they won't ever let go, even if it hurts a thousand times more. - Katz

→ It's better to wait for years for that someone you are sure of, than to grab that chance with someone who picks you up but drops you whenever he wants to. - Katz

→ I'm not bound to be stupid. I have the power to make right choices and decisions. It's just that sometimes, I choose to be stupid, for me to feel a little bit of what they call "HAPPINESS".

→ Every person would love to have a happy ending. Yet no matter how happy the ending is, it will still have to end. -Yumi

→ It's not the effort that makes the girl smile, but the willingness of the guy to do those crazy efforts just to make her smile. - Jessa

→ Somehow you get mad at yourself foor falling so bad. Maybe love is like that, no matter how smart you are, your heart makes you dumb. - Jessa

→ If it takes great courage to stand and fight for something, sometimes it even takes greater courage to just walk away and leave things behind you. - Cath

→ People change. Usually, they change into everything thay said they wouldn't be. - Coleen

→ The moment you find the courage to give up your happiness for someone, would be the moment you understand LOVE. - Jessa

→ If you intend to love someone, be sure to accept the challenges called.. CHANGES. - Jessa

→ When people accuse us of lying, don't get too affected, because we know if we did not lie. We just don't tell them everything. - Katz

→ If telling the truth can hurt and break someone's heart, what more can a lie do? - Prudence

→ How can I forget the person I really loved before.. if even a single blank message makes me fall in love again. - Abie

→ What is sad about loving somebody is when you're not good enough because somebody elso occupies her mind and heart.. and you know you can't compete. - Coleen.

→ Never ignore the person who loves you, cares for you so much, and misses you. Because one day you may wake up and realize that you've lost the moon while counting the stars. - Prudence

→ Oftentimes, people deny what they really feel inside. But how can someone deny if actions can show what they try to hide? - Pat

→ It's not the break up that hurts the most.. It's the post-trauma that follows it. It's waking up and checking up your phone for the message that isn't there. It's like starting your life over again and you have no idea where to begin. - Cath

→ Not everything that makes us happy is right. But for sure, there will come a time, when everything that is right will make us happy. - Donna

→ Most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you most. - Prudence

→ Nobody has the power to make things perfect. But everyone is given countless chances to make things right. - Shiena

→ It's not how long you stayed together that matters. It's how you loved each other even in the shortest time you spent together. - Lyka

→ Love someone when they least deserve it, because thats when they really need it. - Donna

→ To keep something, you must take care of it. Much more, you must understand what kind of care it requires. - Donna

→ If you encounter so much pain because of the person you loved the most, you will learn to love your friends so much and discover the reality that friendship is the best relationship and the best example of love. - Sophia

→ You are responsible for how the world treats you. If you don't like what yo uare getting, change what yo uare doing. It's always up to you to teack people how youwant to be treated. - Jessa

→ When I said I didn't want to see you anymore, why did you choose that particular statement to be the only one you ever listened to? - Tricia

"Oo naman mahirap yun.." :>

This happened while Jecca was scanning the book I got from the shelves, about royalty, etcetera..

JECCA: Mahirap ba maging princess? Parang ang hirap siguro noh?

GULMA': Oo naman, mahirap yun... Nafeel ko na kasi yun eh :>

CATH: Feeler ka talaga!

JECCA: Pero mahirap din maging queen ah? ...

... Naranasan ko na kasing magpatakbo ng castle eh. Ang bigat-bigat pa nung crown!

Bad, Bad Day :|

Okay, so around 10am, Health class, I started to feel unwell. I thought it was just a simple headache and body pain. Next subject drew, ganun pa rin nararamdaman ko. And SOBRANG SAKIT NG ULO KO :| It was not that long when I realized I feel cold and hot at the same time. Tapos lungch time, 12pm, masama talaga pakiramdam ko, eh. Cath asked me to go to the clinic, so sinamahan niya ako. They gave me med and got my temperature.. Right, may lagnat ako, and UUWI NA RAW AKO. I didn't want to go home because I want to attend the remedial class after dismissal. Gusto ko talagang umattend, at kailangan. I failed to attend it last week, because I was absent then; so I did not want to miss it for this week. -- Pinagstay ako sa clinic the whole lunch time, and tatawagan na nga si Dad. I asked the doctor in charged na kung pwede, wag na. Kasi ayaw ko umuiw, kasi nga magreremedial ako. 1pm, they woke me up and asked me to go back to the classroom just as I requested na hindi ako pauwiin. Upon getting there, after silencing prayer, kinausap ako ni Miss P., she said na diba raw may lagnat ako, at sabi nga pinapauwi na ako. She even asked me if I was not feeling well and if I was feeling cold, which happened to be OO nilalamig ako and all. Edi pinababalik niya ako sa clinic, umuwi na raw ako. Sabi ko ayoko, pero ilang beses niya pa inulit na bumalik ako. She even touched me, ang init ko nga raw kasi. Naiyak na ako kasi nga AYOKONG BUMALIK :| Diane accompanied me on the way to the clinic. Edi sabi nung doctor, "Umuwi ka. Kami na ang magdedesisyon, pauuwiin ka na namin.", "O kanina nagrequest ka na gamot na lang, pinahiga na ng 1hour, hindi pa rin bumababa yang lagnat mo tapos pinabalik ka pa rito.". Nung ayaw talagang pumayag na wag ako pauwiin, naiyak ako :(( Eh kasi gusto at kailangan ko na talaga magremedial eh :| Pati si Diane cinoconvince niya yung doctor na pumayag na, eh ayaw talaga pumayag eh :| Sinabi ko pa dun sa doctor na may remedial kasi, and I did not want to miss any class. Tsk. So sige, iyak-iyak, higa sa ward, pahinga. While resting, nangingiyak talaga ako. I really did not want to go home. Then lumapit maya-maya yung isa pang doctor, wag daw ako magcry kasi hindi naman nila decision yun and may sakit talaga ako. Hindi ko pinansin :| Maya-maya, pumasok yung naunang doctor, sabi niya, "O sige o, kukunan kita ulit ng temperature. Tingnan natin kung pababalikin kita.", parang inis pa siya. (Haha!) Then, it was werid kasi, digital thermometer yun, and nung binigay sa akin, nasa 36.6C. Nung okay na and pwede nang iread, 36.6 pa rin :P :) So she said she'll make a letter for the teacher that she is already allowing me to join my class. Kailangan nila gawin yun kasi may rule nga na pag may lagnat, pauuwiin. Eh nag-iinsist talaga ako. And baka sila pa raw yung ma-office dahil nga pinabalik na ako, tapos pababalikin ulit. Kinunan ako ulit ng temperature while making the letter. And wag daw ako yuyuko-yuko. Eh medyo bumaba, so sige, balik ng classroom :) SUPER sakit pa rin ng ulo ko, but I have to pretend I was all okay, para hindi na ako pabalikin. Filiipino class ended, as well as my Guidance class. Bawal yumuko or magreklamo :)

Dismissal time drew close, and yeeeeaah, remedial naa :)) We went to St Veronica's room where remedial classes are held. Jecca and I waited for the teacher for 15 minutes..

And know what happened next? WALANG REMEDIAL! >( :| NAKAKAINIS LANG EH, DIBA? MAY MEETING YATA, CHEVERLOO. BADTRIP SOBRA :| TSK.

K, bye.

Cath - Seva; LAUGHTRIP :))

.. So I was pulled out from my 1-2pm class, which was Filipino.

After the program for the teachers, around 3pm, I got to be next to Cath again.

Kinwento niya lang 'to, pero sobrang natawa ako. Laughtrip talaga, pati si Kim eh :))

Meron daw mga nakasulat na tawagan para sa mga mag'kasintahan'. Meron daw "Sweety" at kung anu-ano pa. Tapos sa pinakahuli raw ng list, "Baby".

Then..

CATH: Bakit walang BABE diyan?!! (Out loud.)

SEVA: 'Baby' and 'Babe' only mean the same thing, right??

CATH: No! Excuse me, BABE means BABOY!!

O eh wala raw siyang masabi eh. Haha :)) Nabara siya >)))) Patay na sa mga may BABE.

*Hi, Babe! LOL :))))))))

Cath - Seva; LAUGHTRIP :))

.. So I was pulled out from my 1-2pm class, which was Filipino.

After the program for the teachers, around 3pm, I got to be next to Cath again.

Kinwento niya lang 'to, pero sobrang natawa ako. Laughtrip talaga, pati si Kim eh :))

Meron daw mga nakasulat na tawagan para sa mga mag'kasintahan'. Meron daw "Sweety" at kung anu-ano pa. Tapos sa pinakahuli raw ng list, "Baby".

Then..

CATH: Bakit walang BABE diyan?!! (Out loud.)

SEVA: 'Baby' and 'Babe' only mean the same thing, right??

CATH: No! Excuse me, BABE means BABOY!!

O eh wala raw siyang masabi eh. Haha :)) Nabara siya >)))) Patay na sa mga may BABE.

*Hi, Babe! LOL :))))))))

DA

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