Exasperation

I'm puzzled. I'm bugged, bothered.

For some reason I am not certain of, I feel so uneasy. The disturbance to my peace of mind gives me the effect of merely losing myself, rather, getting myself thrown in complete space. That for which I am clueless about, what seems to be the reason for this discomposure. I really dislike - despise - this kind of feeling. The feeling that can be described by something that cannot be described. This is the kind of indescribable feeling that does not even let you think of the possible words to fit the exact emotion. It's something I really do not like feeling, leaving me with a lot of questions that I don't even know how to answer, or how I would start finding the right descriptions to get it all right. It's like having a puzzle pad shaped like a cloud, but having puzzle pieces in hand that are actually intended to be shaped like a rose. See, no matter how I think of any reason how to resolve this feeling, I do not know what kind of comfort this uneasiness needs. It's as complicated as having the answers but not having the questions in hand. It's like having to do trial and error just to figure out what seems to be wrong, and what makes you feel that way. The last time I had this kind of sentiment was also the day I found myself watching in the movies alone, treating myself with some snacks I love, and jogging while listening to the songs I find very relaxing - alone. See, the outcome was very questionable. I was trying to do several activities, hoping that one of them can make me feel all better. But that's the one thing I have no idea about, the kind resolution I could give myself to make myself feel okay.

Is what I'm feeling just the effect of missing someone? Is it the aftermath of longing for something? Is it the outcome of being bored? Or just plainly the result of something I regret?

I DON'T KNOW.

Because I am Determined to Do So

I gained weight. I'm growing eyebags. I'm bored.

For the past few weeks and months - yes, including those days that we still have classes - I didn't deprive myself from eating regularly; rice and full meals everyday, plus ate whenever I wanted to. For once, I didn't care about the money I was spending as long as it was on food. During class days, I ate one heavy meal every Recess time, and when I felt like it, also ate in fast food chains after classes. So no wonder why I gained weight, at least.

One more thing; during our last hell week, rather, hell month in SSAM, I have experienced sleeping late at night just to finish a certain requirement, or to review for a quiz, especially if it was in Math. And it causes me to have eyebags :|

It's only been two days having no classes anymore, and man, I sleep LATE, I eat MORE. Having to stay here at home means having a lot more time to be bored. And yes, no excuses from not having to indulge in food, especially if I have my guardian here who constantly reminds me to eat my breakfast, my lunch, my snacks and my dinner.

Having to be bummed the whole day also entitles me to just spend time on the internet, browsing, updating, and the likes. And for whatever reason, I could stay up until 1 in the morning doing random stuff.

This summer, I want to lose weight, and lose the eyebags. Well, having more time to be bored, also means having more time to take care of myself. LOL. And yes, I am determined to get rid of the fats and the 'bags.

So I'll really try hard to have a HEALTHY LIFE. Exercising regularly and choosing the right food to eat.

OO. Itaga mo sa bato, KAYA KO!

Scholastican :)

Scholastican Survey
*Grabbed from Mona

1) Anong reason mo kay Ms. Gabor pag nalelate ka?
♥ Hindi ako nalelate :D

2) Chinecheck ba kung knee-length skirt mo?
♥ Hindi naman.

3) Anong ID color mo?
♥ RED :)

4) Kumakanta ka ba ng St. Scholastica’s Hymn?
♥ Yung simula lang :P

5) Anong mga violations ang nagkaron ka?
♥ Daan sa off-limits areas :))

6) Nahuli ka na bang natutulog habang First Friday Mass?
♥ Hindi :))

7) Nakasuot ka ba ng Gala uniform?
♥ Oo naman! :|

8) Sinong partner mo nung Grad Ball?
♥ My cousin :)

9) Nakausap mo na ba si Ms. Dayag?
♥ O'naman :)

10) Nakabasag ka na ba ng instruments sa Chem/Physics lab?
♥ HINDI :)

11) Sinong kasama niyo sa interaction?
♥ SFA yata, pati SJG. Uh, Claret.

12) May memorable experience ka ba nung Graduation?
♥ Wala pa, bukas pa :)

13) San ka kumakain tuwing break?
♥ Eating are near the Xerox-an :))

14) Anong pangalan ng mga naging Kada mo?
♥ MG :>

15) Anong mga naging color mo nung Sports Fest?
♥ Red. Blue. Red. Green :)

16) Anong mga naging section mo nung HS?
♥ Clare. Elizabeth. Hildegarde. FRANCES :>

17) Nakapunta ka ba ng S’mall?
♥ Malamang :))

18) Nahuli ka na bang nakaupo sa mga lockers?
♥ Oo yata :P

19) Ano pinakamahirap na subject mo?
♥ Mula first year? Chem, AA :))

20) Naging teacher mo ba si Sir Pascual?
♥ YESS :>

21) Ilang teachers na ang napaiyak ka?
♥ Si Sir Pascual lang :))

22) Na - aksidente ka na ba nung HS ka?
♥ Hindi.

23) Ano ang laging kinakain mong pagkain sa canteen?
♥ Chicken Fillet? :P :))

24) In general, love mo ba high school life mo?
♥ SOBRA :)

25) Sumali ka ba sa theater play?
♥ No. Skits oo :))

26) Dancer ka ba nung high school?
♥ Ayos lang, nung second year :))

27) Naging class officer ka ba nung HS?
♥ NO :|

28) Favorite subject mo nung HS?
♥ PE? :P English :)

29) Saang gate ka pumapasok?
♥ Gate 3.

30) Anong mga clubs mo?
♥ RCYO,Dance Club, Pax, SWIMMING :) Iba-iba eh, sorry :))

31) Pinaka - namimiss mo nung HS ka?
♥ LAHAT :|

32) Nagkikita pa ba kayo ng mga classmates mo nung high school?
♥ OO magkikita pa kami! :| :)

33) May naging boyfriend ka ba na taga-Marist?
♥ Wala :D

34) Anong madalas mong binabato sa classmates mo?
♥ Wala naman, papel?

35) Anong mga naging class numbers mo?
♥ 1st - Kalimutan ko na :)) 2nd - 16 3rd - Kalimutan na rin :)) 4th - 24 :D

36) Anong favorite number mo dati?
♥ 27 :)

37) Ilan ang naka-away mo na lower batch?
♥ Wala yata? :)

38) Sinong mga naging crush mo?
♥ Unknown eh :))

39) Kasali ka ba sa banda nung HS?
♥ NOPE.

40) Kung totoong Scholastican ka, sino ang kambal ni St.Scholastica?
♥ St. Benedict. Since Prep yata tinuturo na yan :))

Eighteenth Month :)

Happy EIGHTEENTH month, MG :>

My beloved girls :) We've been through so much, good and bad, but at least we still come out tight :) Thank you for EVERYTHING. I owe you SO MUCH, like the happiness you bring me :> I wanted, am wanting, and would still want you to stay with me forever :D Like how Trish said it, "ONE YEAR DOWN, FOREVER TO GO!", and now we're already through with one year and six months :)

EIGHTEEN months passed, and still counting.. :)

ILOVEYOU :*

Friday the 13th Trivia

Just got this from the internet :))

1. Fear of Friday the 13th - one of the most popular myths in science - is called paraskavedekatriaphobia as well as friggatriskaidekaphobia. Triskaidekaphobia is fear of the number 13.

2. Many hospitals have no room 13, while some tall buildings skip the 13th floor and some airline terminals omit Gate 13.

3. President Franklin D. Roosevelt would not travel on the 13th day of any month and would never host 13 guests at a meal. Napoleon and President Herbert Hoover were also triskaidekaphobic, with an abnormal fear of the number 13.

4. Mark Twain once was the 13th guest at a dinner party. A friend warned him not to go. "It was bad luck," Twain later told the friend. "They only had food for 12." Superstitious diners in Paris can hire a quatorzieme, or professional 14th guest.

5. The number 13 suffers from its position after 12, according to numerologists who consider the latter to be a complete number - 12 months in a year, 12 signs of the zodiac, 12 gods of Olympus, 12 labors of Hercules, 12 tribes of Israel, 12 apostles of Jesus, 12 days of Christmas and 12 eggs in a dozen.

- Ooh. Makes sense :P :))

Haha :>

.. Because today,

I AM HAPPY :)))))))

K. Bye :))